Portraits of The Heart

Some of you know, that I have grand dreams of having a little business.  For years, I've loved being behind the lens and learning all about how to communicate through the art of photography.  There is so much to learn!  Phew!


  I have learned to be really, really nit picky about all sorts of things that don't mean anything to "normal" people and I like it that way.  This may sound strange, but it is true... Since learning and tuning my Photographer's Eye, I have found that it I can become too critical and forget to enjoy the "moment" that is in a photograph.  You know, the proverbial "snapshot"?  Well, that generally makes me crazy and uptight...its too wrong for too many reasons and I can't enjoy it.  Sometimes I try to fake it..."oh that's cute", or "what a fun moment you captured".  Those are often (but not always) my escape phrases.  


So, why did I display this beautifully drawn portrait of Titus, Brian and I?  Am I comparing snapshot photography to the art of a child?  Well, not entirely, but sort of....and PLEASE don't be offended!!
The comparison is this -  My son Titus loves to color and draw, not likes, but loves it.  However, just because he loves it, doesn't mean that what he draws is awe inspiring, amazing Louvre quality art.  He drew this picture because he wanted to show his love for me.  He was showing me what he was thinking about, what he was feeling at that moment.  


Just as that snapshot that drives me crazy should.  Life isn't always lived on the perfect settings, but we manage to enjoy it because of the heart of the matter.   Sometimes I let me expectations spoil my joy.  
If only I would remember to adjust my expectations accordingly I could appreciate and enjoy things a little more.  


Truly, I'm not a perfectionist...wish I was more of one, actually.  Its just a fact that we all have areas that we need to give ourselves permission to adjust our expectations.  Not adjust them to something that is lower and unacceptable, but to what is good and right and pure.


I've heard it said, "Life according to your heartbeat is the only way to live, adjust accordingly."