Daily over loaded...

Blessed be the Lord, who daily loadeth us with benefits,

even the God of our salvation.

Psalm 68:19

For the past few months I have been planning on going to a Ladies Retreat that our church is having. It is coming up this weekend (Thurs-Sat.) . Last year, I was unable to go because I had a newborn baby. I wouldn't want to be a distraction or a bother to the other ladies attending because even though Titus was nice and cute...babies are often unpredictable! All that to say, I have been anxiously awaiting this year's retreat!

However, I realized that the very next weekend was supposed to be when Brian was going to a Men's Conference in Indianapolis. Hmmm. How would we plan for that? Well, Brian said that he could schedule things at work so that we could both go, but my concern was the money side of things. I really felt like it would be a strain on our budget if we both went to our respective activities. I went to Brian and told him my concern and that I thought that I would just rather stay home so that he could go to the Men's Conference. He works so long and hard all day, and night often times, he deserves to go. I prayed and asked the Lord to provide the money aside from our budget for me to go by the date that we had to sign up. That day came and I hadn't gotten any money so I told our Pastor's wife that I wouldn't be going after all. Brian agreed that it was the right thing. Not that I didn't want to go with the Ladies, because I really did, but I wanted him to go more.

Being the resourceful female that I am, I decided to list some old school books and baby items on eBay, just to see if I could make enough money to go. Don't you love how we try and help God out sometimes?!

Then...

Friday evening...

Brian says to me, "IF you WERE going to go on the retreat, what time would you need to leave on Thursday?"

I said, "Why? I'm not going, remember?"

" I know that, but, IF you WERE, WHEN would you need to leave?" he said.

"grrr, it would be at 8 am, but who cares?!" I said to him.

He turned to me and said " I think you should go, really, I want you to go."

Now I really had mixed emotions about this. I had gotten used to the idea that I wasn't going and I was really fine with that... ... and now, he wants me to go??!! So, now I had to check with the person that had said that she could watch our children during the day on Thursday and Friday, to make sure that she was still willing, maybe she'd changed her mind? Nope, she said it was still fine.

So now I'm going.

First, I was, then I wasn't, and now I am.

Sunday, was the last day to pay and I turned in my check and it was all settled.

I am going.

After service, our Pastor's wife came up to me and handed me my check back. "Your registration has been taken care of by someone else, so you can have this back!"

Wha? (I'm sure I had a bit of a deer in headlights look) Well, Praise the Lord! What a blessing!! I really AM going, and the Lord DID provide for me, even though it wasn't when I asked him to, but it was right on time! Praise the Lord!!

Monday morning...

I logged onto the computer to check email and such and went to check on the status of my eBay sales. To my great pleasure, I had sold the three most expensive items for more than I had planned to get!! The buyer's paid right away and I have already been able to transfer the money to my account and withdraw it at the bank!!

Now, not only am I going to the Ladies Retreat, BUT I also have spending money!! Praise the Lord!

Why am I always so quick to give up on God? I prayed and then I forgot to wait on the Lord. I am such a selfish little child sometimes and my loving Heavenly Father still looks after me. He loves me and loadeth me, if I will just be still know, if I will wait and watch, if I would be more faithful, instead of so faithless.